5 years and 2 months of TTC

As i set here and ponder i cant help but thank my husband and i have been trying for a Miracle baby on earth for 5 years and 2 long months with only being able to get praggy 2 times and both those ending in a miscarrage, the last baby we lost was due JUNE 8th 2009 So it does hit me hard that my baby will not be Born at all i have a Niece that is due June 5th 2009 We was excited about having the babies be born close in age, But sadly my baby did not make it,

Some times i ask GOD when will it be my turn i know he can do miracles i have seen it 1st hand But it can get depresing i have been through hell over it and Yes i been through all of the tests ETC the only thing left is to mix my husbands sperm with my egg then place that back in me and Pray it takes and then if it does pray i dont lose the baby this cost to much money we just simpley dont have and we dont have the money to adopt either

We are praying GOD will have Favoir on us and we will be blessed with a child either way it doesnt mater how a baby comes to us it would be ours and we would have open hearts and arms to love that baby ,

i just want to be a Mother on earth i am a mother of 2 angels in heaven i love my babies but i want a baby on earth to hold to love to here those words mommy

My husband wants more then this world to be a daddy and it kills me that its taken us this long

I will be 29 in AUG 1 year away at that point from being 30 i want a baby before i turn 30 my heart is broken my soul is hurt

Keep praying for us

Love
April