1 month past

1 Month has gone by since we lost our unborn baby, it has not been Easy it never Is i wont lie we have not gained any support from any Family members infact my big brother well the oldest of my 2 big brothers dont have 1 dran thing to do with us truly the other one dont either, my mom well she was never truly all together there, and of course the only one i ever was close to my dad he died in 2004, we have had a grate deal of support from stangers online but not offline,

We miss our baby so very much the sock of seeing his arm and where he was forming his head every thing wasnt easy on me, i am not saying i would never want to have seen him i am very grateful i had a chance to see my baby BOY but easter sunday changed my LIFE forever he wasnt our only loss but somthing about this baby changed me.

i cant understand why thesse things seem to happen to those who would love children more then the world and back again

but those who beat or murder there own children seem to have them It seems so unfair when i walk in to a store and see a mother yell at her child then HIT him im not just talken a small smack becasue he acted out but truly a big old HIT a cross the face and then she laughs about it or she cuss's him out,

or a woman who gets praggy easly and also aborts them Easly i cant understand how people can have babies just to hurt those babies but when it comes to me some one whos helped raise other peoples kids

some one who be a GRATE MOTHER seems to lose her unborn baby and seems to never have a baby on earth

i guse i am complaning to much i trust in GOD for sure becasue he is the one who holds all life in his hands he can give life and he can take it AWAY.

i do trust him BUT the human part of me is so hurt and angery and says when will it be my trun

i dont no i guse im only venting please pray for me and us

well im gonna go to bed now its 5 AM