Lorey update

Wow seems forever since i updated our family blog then again no one reads me or comes on here any ways so i do not even know why i keep posting here LOL.

it is now OCT 2010 my radition treatments is over with praise God im now in 5 months of my remison and praise God every moment of every day life is such a gift from God above.

as for medical problams i have sufferd from on going UTI and it sucks big time unsure if its caused by radition or not .

there is some problams and side affects from cancer and such but im doing well

christian lorey is doing well to he got a pay raise at work its been nice we are doing fine

ok i dont no what to write on here only because no one comments or is my friend turly on here

ill update later god bless

ever have one of those days you feel like no one seems to care about you ? like all they did was use you and when they was done they put you out in the trash can ? i have had many of those days. those days are not easy.

Family is not what it once use to be friends are not either, I found that when no one seems to be there that GOD is always there you can tell him every thing and he will Listin and never judge you ( ok so that was funny god judges every thing he is our judge ) but ya no what i mean

people all they do is judge you hurt you step on you they want to see you Fail and they even set you up to fail. But God is not like this he wants the best for us and dont want us to fail .

with out God i am nothing and no one turly i can not see Life with out him.

forgiveness is always KEY factor but it dont make u hurt any less for sure

oh well im just going on and on about things i guse

I start my 2nd redition treatment in 2 days im not looking forward to that but ill get By God is with me and always has been .

the 1st round gave me an upset tummy and i became sick but i will make it through all of this and in the end i know i have beat cancer and kicked it in the butt

ok well for now thats all i have to say lol

Signing off

no one ever reads my blog anyways

APril

Cancer and Radition

Well i dont come on here as much as i should but maybe i should start coming here more offten, many all ready know that in the 1st week or so in march

i had been rushed to the Hospital bleeding i had past out and husband had to call 911 i had a blood transfusion and told i needed a D&C no this time i didnt misscarry.

on march 22nd 2010 my test showed i had Urtaus cancer sadly. on April 16th i had my Urtaus and ovrys and tubes along with lymp nodes removed

found out im stage 1 A but grade 2 of my cancer , im now in remison but still have to undergo radition treatment starting june 23rd 2010 and checks ups with my cancer doctor every 3 months for 2 years then every 6 months for 3 years with ct scans once a year if the cancer dont return ill be cancer free in 5 years

its not been easy having all removed ment the ending of our dream to have a child, so thats what i been up to

ill try and post here more offten thanks for prayers

The little one we wanted to adopt has all ready been adopted, due to some incom issues we found out we will not be able to adopt at lest over seas anyways how ever we can sponser a child from reeces rainbow who needs adopted we are going to prayfuly consider doing this in the up coming new year but not just any place probley with reeces rainbow please pray for all the little ones who has downs to get a home :)

For now thats all the update but i will update later on

Wanting to Adopt a little boy with downs

Many of you know my husband and i want to Adopt a Child to us we did not care of the child was newborn or 11 we just have a heart to adopt a child, i was doing some research on googles and i found a place here is the address http://www.reecesrainbow.com It is called Reeces rainbow we are praying over this little boy in the photo we fell in love with him and all through we are unsure if we would even be approved of adoption due to debt and our incom we will never stop praying over this little boy to find a home, we are praying that his home will be with us through, we have contacted reeces rainbow and are waiting to here back from this if all went well we would hold an Adoption fundraiser to bring this little boy home we would love more then anything to give him a home.

He was born in 2006 and has downsydrom all of reeces rainbow kids are down kids they need your prayers love and attachen so even if you can not adopt a child your self you can sponsor a child and it helps the ones who will adopt them with Adoption funds you could think about doing this.

Please pray for us over Adopting a this child from reeces rainbow pray for GODS blessing and if we cant get appoved pray he can be adopted pray for all the children at reeces rainbow they need to be adopted out fast.

i will update more and promise to adopt once we find out more

God bless

April

1 month past

1 Month has gone by since we lost our unborn baby, it has not been Easy it never Is i wont lie we have not gained any support from any Family members infact my big brother well the oldest of my 2 big brothers dont have 1 dran thing to do with us truly the other one dont either, my mom well she was never truly all together there, and of course the only one i ever was close to my dad he died in 2004, we have had a grate deal of support from stangers online but not offline,

We miss our baby so very much the sock of seeing his arm and where he was forming his head every thing wasnt easy on me, i am not saying i would never want to have seen him i am very grateful i had a chance to see my baby BOY but easter sunday changed my LIFE forever he wasnt our only loss but somthing about this baby changed me.

i cant understand why thesse things seem to happen to those who would love children more then the world and back again

but those who beat or murder there own children seem to have them It seems so unfair when i walk in to a store and see a mother yell at her child then HIT him im not just talken a small smack becasue he acted out but truly a big old HIT a cross the face and then she laughs about it or she cuss's him out,

or a woman who gets praggy easly and also aborts them Easly i cant understand how people can have babies just to hurt those babies but when it comes to me some one whos helped raise other peoples kids

some one who be a GRATE MOTHER seems to lose her unborn baby and seems to never have a baby on earth

i guse i am complaning to much i trust in GOD for sure becasue he is the one who holds all life in his hands he can give life and he can take it AWAY.

i do trust him BUT the human part of me is so hurt and angery and says when will it be my trun

i dont no i guse im only venting please pray for me and us

well im gonna go to bed now its 5 AM

Easter was a bad day

Easter was a very bad day for me i started to bleed around 2:30 AM very thick blood and ended up losen my unborn baby we saw his arm and fingers ETC and what was starting to from in to his head, i went to the ER and bleed for 24 hours none stop, i came home and tryed my best to get some rest of course that did not come until the bleeding came to a full stop,

this is my 2nd loss since OCT of 2008 all together 3 loses, of course, i found out i have a bleeding disorder so this is why i keep losen my babies and also find it hard to get praggy, im at high risk of cancer due to it, i may need to have every thing removed meaning no chance to ever have a baby this is hard,

im still week im on my lap top PC in my rocking chair but every time i have to get up i start having problams breathing

im trying to deal with this along with the lose life can be so unfair and so messed up but ill keep my faith in GOD over it all i know hes in control and i love him

but that dont mean i dont have feelings im still a human

please pray for us thanks

April