Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Easter was a bad day

Easter was a very bad day for me i started to bleed around 2:30 AM very thick blood and ended up losen my unborn baby we saw his arm and fingers ETC and what was starting to from in to his head, i went to the ER and bleed for 24 hours none stop, i came home and tryed my best to get some rest of course that did not come until the bleeding came to a full stop,

this is my 2nd loss since OCT of 2008 all together 3 loses, of course, i found out i have a bleeding disorder so this is why i keep losen my babies and also find it hard to get praggy, im at high risk of cancer due to it, i may need to have every thing removed meaning no chance to ever have a baby this is hard,

im still week im on my lap top PC in my rocking chair but every time i have to get up i start having problams breathing

im trying to deal with this along with the lose life can be so unfair and so messed up but ill keep my faith in GOD over it all i know hes in control and i love him

but that dont mean i dont have feelings im still a human

please pray for us thanks

April

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